Hope Everyone had Great Mothers Day Weekend!

Mothers Day was alittle bitter sweet for me. I was a time of realizing my family has grown and moved on to their own lives. It started to wear on me and I used alot of the time to reflex. I learned alot of things threw this all and mostly it involved letting go and embrassing the future Daddy and I will have together someday.

My struggles since my Daddy missing

I never knew what a long distance D/s relationship could feel like and if i had to pick this is not something I would wish on anyone. Its the hardest of relationships only communicating from a distance. Sure webcams ,yahoo, blogger, texting, skype and everything else we have incoorperated helps.BUT..........................
I still long for the sting of your hand striking my ass, the feel of your skin pounding my wet needy cunt, to be tied to the bed with you teasing stroking me gazing into my eyes!

One part of me worries that the distance will tear us apart the other part tells me I have nothing to worry about.
Daddy you have brought be so far. You told me youd never leave me and I know you had no choice because of your job. I have to right to feel abandunded but I do. I have tried to stop feeling this but it returns.
It's only been two weeks and seems like a life time since we have been together! How often will we get to meet? I know you don't have the answer for this yet as it depends on how often work sends you back here. Just that need to know grows more all the time.
I guess it all comes down to im afraid to be alone. You promise me your'e still here and that will help but it is going to take time. I hate feeling insecure and that is how it feels.
I need to know this will work out. I need to know Im not alone. I need to not feel so needy.
I know this letter will disappoint you but I want you to know how I'm feeling. I'm sure daddy will be giving me extra order's in the morning to help deal with all this.
The day you asked me to wear your collar I was the happiest lil girl in the world I will never have any regrets for excepting it! It brings me great comfort now to be able to reach up and grab it when I'm feeling insecure. I love you daddy

Its Been Awhile!

I have been away from Blogging for while but I feel I need to have a way to express myself and connect with other submissives in this lifestyle. I still have a tremendous relationship with my Daddy. My Daddy now lives 3 states away from me and so we dont get the twice a month physical contact visits we once did. I know some time in the future we will be living together but for now we are strictly long distance. Its a joy to be back and looking forward to connecting with anyone that is in the lifestyle or curious about it.

Finding the Real Me

For years i had stumbled threw life knowing i was living a lie. Hiding who i really was. Being the ......perfect mother..... perfect wife.... perfect worker never really being what i truely was born to be. I will be the first one to admit it was down right painful.
After so many years of hiding and feeling emotionally drained from the denial i was found by my soul mate, my Master, my lover. I am now a collared slave, though still hiding from the family i live with there is still the sense of total release and freedom to finally know what was missing in my life!
about a year ago i innocently started up a conversation with a gentalman that seeked me out in a chat room. I remember thinking at the time "this guy seems different, this guy would be a good friend, this guy seems to know me and my inner feelings". We became close friends and the conversations became very involved and he lead me to a place in my life i finally knew who i was and what i was ment to be.
He made me see all the feelings i had stuffed deep inside where not wrong and i wasnt a bad person for having such desires and needs.
Today i am his collared slave and he is my Daddy DomMaster. I maybe restricted by the family i live with but i really do have the best of both worlds.